I’m getting off the merry go round
I really don’t like being dizzy
Happiness is our own making
I held my salvation in my hands the entire time
Love IS all WE need
I’m getting off the merry go round
I really don’t like being dizzy
Happiness is our own making
I held my salvation in my hands the entire time
Love IS all WE need
To whip or be whipped that is the question.
An eye for an eye made our world blind
Recidivism
Using tried and true assistive devices
Walked a crooked mile with a crooked smile
Vicious
Insidious
Perfidious
Got off spinning too fast on a merry go round
The choke of it all
Fated till the end?
An accounting
Penance
Absolution
Here’s your charm Cindy
Candace Michelle
09/19/1970
Shelly Johanna
3/26/1980
Rachel Anne
05/12/1981
Daughters of Lucinda Jeanine
03/10/1949 – 10/08/1949
I was 10 years old when I tested an electric fence. I was today years old when I realized it wasn’t because I leaned my fishing pole against it.
What will I leave them?
my very last breath
10 toes down
Gripping my mother
More and then some
Self preservation can be a fucked up thing sometimes
13 years of muscle memory
A constricted love story
18 years apart left a mark
I’m walking away
Exposing all of me
Restoring a faith lost
Nourishing a wounded soul
Safety first
Keep your hands in at all times
If at any time the masks drop down
Put your mask on first before helping someone else
Now enjoy the ride
Music is life
Set off that grenade
Shake loose of those crawlspaces
Step into the sun
Love IS what WE need.
Feeling myself
Divide and conquer
Splitting mother fucking hairs
Excuse my french?
Yellowstone
Willamette River
MOTHER FUCKING PAYWALL NYT
THE ENTIRE SOUTHWESTERN US
CHICAGO
Jacobabad
Keeping your eye on those balls?
HOUSING
FOOD
GAS
Whose back will break first?
Our mother who art in heaven
OPEN OPEN YOUR EYES
My words
Still want to taste these lips?
P.S.
DeathKKKult Barbie
You’re not getting that Dough* eyed Vogue rehab cover on this watch
Deep throat that sunshine.
Picking up the weight of the world.
Watch me run with it.
In Eastern Oregon they set the fields on fire in the heat of summer to prepare the soil for seeding, there’s a science to it. Predicting the right weather pattern to lift the smoke out of the valley so residents don’t choke on it. For over a hundred years this has been done.
Almeda
04/05/1863
Roseburg, Oregon
Great Great Grandmother to
Candace Michelle
09/19/1970
Burnaby BC, Canada
Daughter of
Lucinda Jeanine
03/10/49
La Grande, Oregon
10/08/21
Boise, Idaho
Strawberry Mountain
Glass Hill
Rooster Peak
Spring Creek
Tony Vey Meadows
Eagle Caps
Ladd Canyon
Wallowa Lake
Phillips Reservoir
Oxbow
Sumpter
Wolf Creek
Thief Valley
Gravel roads winding through the mountains and valleys like veins to my heart.
Cross my heart and hope to die
I spoke a lie
I never really wanted to die
A promise is true.
Truth be told.
Hand over my heart
Ugly city girl.
Taking the panic out of my voice.
Measured breaths.
Dancing to the beat of a different drummer
Don’t let Mark tell you who I am
Ulterior motives
Digitizing souls
He’ll sell your soul to the highest bidder
“Roses love sunshine
Violets love dew
Angels in Heaven
Know I love”
Remember
I’m Buck & Patty’s oldest granddaughter.
I can buck a bale and can a raspberry.
Fix my own damn flat.
And I’m Luca’s Nammy.
Transformative
Not performative.
Dancing monkeys on a leash
Breathe
Spun myself into a frenzy
Tossed so many balls I lost track
Attraction is THE distraction
Monkey on a leash
So many fucking channels
Overloading the airwaves
Muffling out the cries
Can’t believe what is happening right in front of our eyes.
First amendment
Our right to assemble
Quietly.
A homegrown terrorist?
Because we want healthcare?
Housing for our houseless?
Terrorists stormed a capitol
Terrorists march with guns in our streets
Focus
Eyes like a laser
Breathe.
Swimming in dark molasses.
Everything hurts.
I opened my mouth and heard her scream.
The whites of my eyes turned pink
This foundation means nothing.
Tears are constantly there.
Waking me in the night drowning me in my sleep.
I don’t want to feel like this anymore.
I am a danger to no one but myself.
Enclose me in a box of slate rock
My fingertips running along the stony cleft.
rub the dirt particles into the stone.
I could lay my head down and moisten the rock with my tears.
Cool my cheek against it.
Leave me there till i come to my senses
That panic came from somewhere.
Under my rib cage next to my heart.
It scares me.
I scare me.
All eyes on her.
Second grade.
Look her in the eye.
I’ve seen it.
Still feel it.
Tight lipped, death grip.
Satan danced on those lips.
He came there too.